Encrypted Thoughts (watty awards 2012) (ON HOLD)

Prologue

The rush of excitement filled me as I stood in the ecstatic crowd that sang along with a new rock band called ƙƝίƍɧϮȿɧɐȡ϶ which they were named after the leader singer. The funny thing of it all was that the lead singer was the Alpha werewolf of my pack, the sexiest man alive. I smiled to myself as I swayed to the rock music, conforming to myself that he was a really sexy guy for someone who was an Alpha and just recently starting a band at nineteen.

        “I am ME!!!” He nearly screamed, his finish, into the microphone.

        The crowd went wild at his finish and that was when I pushed my way through the crowd so that I could leave and go home to sleep but suddenly my name was being announced into the crowd. “Vivian Bane come to the back stage, please.” I knew instantly that it was my twin brother; Taylor how now went by Thrash for his cool rocker name.

        I sighed heavily making my way to the back stage but once I was there I saw that the band: my brother, the guitarist Edge, and ƙƝίƍɧϮȿɧɐȡ϶ were all high off of some drug they had given themselves so they could perform on stage. I grumbled a few choice cuss words as I realized that we might be here a while so I decided that I would go sleep in one of the rooms, lay on the couch there but the next thing I knew I was  making out with kNightshade, Gabriel Tremblé. And one thing led to another. The next thing I knew he was making me leave him be after he was done with me. That was now only two weeks ago since I had had sex with him but since I’m a werewolf…well I got pregnant and am now due in a week to have my child. But he didn’t know that I was the girl he slept with and so he doesn’t know that I am pregnant with his child.

        Anyway my best friend, Hayden, dragged me to one of their concerts which just somewhat pissed me off seems how she knew that Gabriel and I had slept together and that I was pregnant with his child but whatever.

        “Hey everybody this song is for a girl that stole my heart over two weeks ago. The song’s called Encrypted thoughts.” Gabriel said to the crowd. “I hope you guys like it.”

        The music started to play and he began to sing:

(Verse one)

Thinking back to the day

I gave you up and turned away

I can’t help but blame myself

I turned you down for fame and wealth

I’m aware that you’re scarred

I know that I have caused you harm

There’s one thing that I must do

I want to take this pain from you

 

(Refrain)

Please forgive me

Cause I’m so sorry

I wish that I knew you

I wish I could read you

 

(Chorus)

I’m trying to read your encrypted thoughts

Wondering if you love me or not

I’m sorry that you had to go away

I’m sorry that it had to be this way

I’m yearning to read your encrypted thoughts

Learned now from that war I’ve fought

Decoding you to make you stay

Deciphering what you will say

Cause I, I am

Learning your encrypted thoughts

 

(Verse two)

Remembering that night

I lost a fateful deadly fight

I should have asked you to stay

To you I gave my heart away

Now I’m down on the floor

Cause I can’t do this anymore

You are my love, you’re my life

You are the hand that stills the knife

 

(Refrain)

Please forgive me

Thought I’m not worthy

I wish I had told you

I wish I had kept you

 

(Repeat chorus)

 

(Bridge)

You deserve someone

Better than me

You oughta love someone

That isn’t like me

I know that I let down

But don’t you know you

Turned my life around?

 

(Repeat chorus)

 

I want to read your

Encrypted thoughts

        The crowd went wild as I mumbled to myself. “I’m sorry for the bitch he wrote that for.”

§§§

Taylor dragged me to their photo shoot the next day, saying that I needed to get out of the house even though I was pregnant. The only bad this is that he didn’t know who the father of my child was and also I was like an elephant, I was so fat with my belly bump but I wore a baggy hoodie to hide the fact that I was pregnant and due any day now. I was walking around bored out of my mind waiting for them to at least have a break but suddenly I was being pushed up against the wall by someone strong. I turned slowly to find Gabriel’s golden, amber eyes glowing with pure rage.

“You bitch!” He slammed his fist into the wall behind me growling at me angrily.

“What did I do?” I cried flinching away from him which made him growl.

“You cannot be my damn fucking mate you ugly ass bitch!” He growled slamming another hand into the wall behind me.

I flinched once again.

“I-I-I’m sorry A-A-Alpha.” I stumbled before he smacked me but that wasn’t the worst part, the worst part was that his claws were out which when he hit me it left claw marks on my left cheek.

I cried out in pain sinking low to the ground as I held my cheek in my hand, Gabriel stalking off but I somehow managed to get up and leave. I went home packing up what all I had before I wrote a note to my brother:

Taylor,

My mate rejected me. I can’t stand to be around him now. I love you.

Vivian ♥

       

It was short, simple, and to the point. I then left the pack house tears streaming, burning the claw mark my mate had given me only an hour ago. I cried as I drove to Hayden, hoping she would be able to help in some way.