Megan's POV
Me and Julia have been laying in my bed for 3 hours now watching Friends and munching on pizza rolls. That's the thing about having this good of a best friend... No matter how much time we spend apart, we always can go right back to how we were when we were together. We spend some time talking about her and Matt's new relationship. Apparently while I was shacked up in my apartment with Noah all this time, little Julia has caught herself a boyfriend as well. But I don't see Noah as just a boy... The way he treats me is the way a real man treats a lady...Oh and he fucks like a real man. Damn, I spent the last 3 hours completely focused on other things and now I'm slipping.
"Stop making that face boo." Julia tapped the end of my nose, while giving me a pouty face. I stuck my tongue out at her, rolling over to grab the empty plate from my night stand. I jumped up heading to the kitchen to put the dishes in the dishwasher... Anything to take my mind off Noah, who still hasn't texted me yet.
"MEGAN!" I hear Julia shout from my bedroom. I turn quick, dropping the plate into the sink to rush to the bedroom.
"What?" I shout back at her. She meets me half way, both of us stopping in the living room. She is waving my phone around and jumping up and down.
"He's calling you!" I immediately perked up. An instant smile spread across my face at his name flashing across my phone's screen. I snatched it from her hand unable to contain myself. Oh my God, I really do have it bad... I hit the answer button, putting the phone to my ear.
"Hey beautiful." He mumbles from the other end of the phone before I can say anything.
"Hey handsome." I smirk at his endearing names for me. No matter how many times he calls me beautiful, my stomach still gets butterflies.
"Be cool." I look over to see Julia mouthing to me. I flip her off walking through my bedroom and into my bathroom for some privacy. If I talk in front of Julia it will only make me more nervous.
"I'm sorry I haven't texted you all day." He says and, I can hear the sound of his truck door shutting. Thank God he says something. It was driving me crazy.
"It's no problem." My insides start to warm more and more at the sound of his voice. I don't even care why he didn't text me all day or why he was quiet this morning... I'm just happy to hear his damn voice. He was probably busy just like Julia said.
"I've had a lot of shit to do and work has been crazy." I nodded even though I know he can't see me. All I can do is pay attention to the sound of his voice, it just soothes my nerves. A kiss would soothe my nerves more...
"Megan, you there?" He pulls me from my thoughts.
"Oh yeah. Sorry, what'd you say?"
"I just said I have some of my fraternity shit I need to do tonight and I think we have an event tomorrow or something. I haven't really been on top of that shit so I gotta go." He rushed out and he kind of sounded like he was sort of apologizing. For what?
"I understand baby!" I replied a little to excited. Damn, I really forced that one out. I just can't stop thinking about everything that has happened since this morning and now he sounds a little off... I'm just paranoid. He just has stuff he needs to do.
"Okay..." He sounded like he was sort of at a loss for words, so I decided to put him out of his misery. I just need to relax and have a night away from Noah. Just clear my head.
"Don't worry about me. It's Friday night and Julia's here, we'll have us a girl's night." I looked into the mirror of my bathroom, staring at my reflection. I can't let my feelings get to me. I just have to keep reminding myself of that. I got this.
"Okay, cool." Why is he being so weird? He isn't, you're being paranoid. Be cool.
"Well if you need to go, I can let you go. Just text me whenever." I was able to breathe out. A night with Julia and I will be fine. I'm just not used to feeling this way is all and once I get used to it, I'll be good. I told myself from the beginning I was going to just go with it but here I am freaking out... And probably over nothing...
"I will." He is being so short... And usually he is all flirty and makes cute little jokes.
"Talk to you later handsome." I decided the best thing to do is be the one to finish this awkward conversation. And if I wait too long, I will say something I regret.
"Bye beautiful." I didn't wait for him to say anything else and I ended the call. Because the tone in his voice had tears pushing up to my lids. Oh no Megan you will not cry. There is nothing to cry about, he is just busy. Breathe.
Noah's POV
Fuck I really need to get out of this bed. I just keep laying here staring up at the dingy ceiling, thinking of her... It's Saturday afternoon and I avoided Megan all yesterday expect for when I called her to tell her I had some stuff to do this weekend and all this morning I haven't texted her either. She hasn't texted or called me either. I could feel the tension between us, and I know she felt it too when we talked on the phone. I wonder if she has been thinking about that shower yesterday morning as much as I have... I can't get her out of my head and that face she made when I told her I wanted to watch her while I made love to her. It just came out of my mouth... I didn't mean to say it, not that I don't mean it. I do. I didn't lie about having stuff to do last night though. After being so enthralled in her and that perfect little pussy of hers... Fuck I'm gonna get an erection if I think about it too much and I have done good at keeping my head clear since I left her apartment. I forgot I had responsibilities while I was getting lost in her for basically two weeks straight. Fuck, but how can I not?
I think I love her... Fuck, every time I think about that I get sick. Why did I have to go and fall in love with her? I'm pretty sure that's what this is... This is what I had Victoria for. Any problem or frustration, she always knew what to say or do. Today is the gonna be the four-year anniversary of her death... or really murder. I can't let myself think about it... Fuck, I need a drink or something.
BUZZ BUZZ BUZZ. My phone started to vibrate from my jacket pocket laying across the bottom of my bed. Shit, I thought he was gonna skip the call this year. He's the only one that talks about it. I grabbed my phone turning it over to see my Uncle Jimmy's name flash across the screen. Of course, he is checking up on me to make sure I'm alright. I wanted to ignore it, but I know it will only worry him and today is not the day for that.
"Hey what's up nephew?" He will beat around the bush as usual, never actually coming straight out and saying what he really wants to ask.
"I know you're calling because todays the day." He went silent on the other end. He knows how hard today is for me. Me and my sister were so close and for someone to just take her away like that... Take her beautiful life. She was one of the most non-judgmental, down to earth people I knew. And she was always there for me when I needed her... And that motherfucker took her away. Not just took her away... beat her away... till she had no soul or life left in her.
"I just wanted to see how you were doing... And I wasn't at the shop yesterday to get a chance to talk to you..." He means well... He just knows I hate talking about my sister, but I mine as well talk to someone about Megan... I have no fucking idea what else to do.
"I wish that was the worst thing on my mind right now..." It's not that I hate having Megan on my mind... because she is probably my favorite person in the world. She makes me smile and laugh... And she really turns me the fuck on. She is so damn sweet. And I love the way she tries to take care of me by cooking me food and doing my laundry... But after playing house for a few weeks and this day coming up it's making me think... I couldn't bare losing her. I mean I know I won't lose her in the way I lost Victoria but still... Love is just so fucked.
"What's going on? Is everything alright?" If he only knew... He knows a little bit about Megan. We've talked about her and I've showed him pictures of her we've taken together lounging all around her apartment. Even when she's no makeup, hair all messy and wearing sweats, she is still the most beautiful girl I've ever seen.
"I'm gonna sound like the biggest pussy saying any of this." He started to chuckle a little bit.
"I think I know what this is about." He continued to chuckle while talking.
"Really?"
"Yeah, and you aren't a pussy for wanting to talk about the girl you have feelings for-" For some reason I immediately jumped cutting him off to defend myself for some reason. And what's the big deal? And he is right, I do have feelings for her.
"No, I don't-" This time he cut me off.
"Shut up and listen Noah. Don't be one of those dumbasses that thinks its crazy to want to love a woman and be committed to her... Especially a woman you really care about and you obviously do whether you want to admit it or not. And it's okay to want to talk about how you feel because I know women can also being confusing as hell." He laughed a little trying to lighten the mood from the little lecture he gave.
"I'm sorry... I've just lost one important person in my life and it just kind of... scares the shit out of me." He breathes out a sigh and so do I. Damn, it felt good saying that out loud to someone.
"I understand what you mean, but you don't want to miss out on a beautiful girl you could have real feelings for just because you're scared of losing her." He's right, I know he's right. And it's actually what I've been telling myself all morning while lying in my bed just absentmindedly staring. But for some reason I just can't convince myself to tell her how I really feel... And what if she doesn't even feel the same anyways? Then all this stressing would be for nothing.
"Yeah, I guess. I don't know. I gotta go though Unc, I got a few things I need to do today." I lied straight out my ass. I don't really have shit to do today. I do have that Alpha Vs Alpha Fraternity party tonight which is the event I told Megan I had to go to tonight. But really, it's not required that you go, even though they are pretty fucking fun. Just a lot of fucking drinking and smoking. I rather be with her though. But maybe I need another night away from her... and maybe get a little drunk. Sounds like a good idea to me.
"Don't fuck shit up Noah." That could be applied to many situations, but I know he means Megan... He tried to tell me the other day at the shop that he has never seen me so happy before. I told him he was a goof and that he was full of shit, but in my head I was agreeing with him. I have never been as happy as I am when I'm with her.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'll talk to you later."
"Bye nephew." I hung up the phone tossing it over to the other side of my bed. Maybe I need a nap, then tonight I'll go to that party with Jack and Jimmy.
Megan's POV
Julia did a perfect job keeping my mind off Noah the rest of the night. We did our usual watched movies, talked and laughed. It really never takes much to entertain us when we are together. As long as we have some food, we are good to go. Noah stayed from my mind until I went to sleep and of course he just had to make an appearance in my dreams.
Just images of me leaning back into his naked chest, while the warm water in the bath tub moves around us. He runs his hands down my arms and lays sweet kisses across my shoulder. Then he does like he always does and pulls my hair to one shoulder so he can kiss on my neck and whisper sweet words into my ear. He would whisper how beautiful I am...and how much he loved to just look at me lay across his chest... naked and wet.
Fuck, maybe I need to start taking some of those cold showers Noah is always taking. Julia left this morning to go visit her mom, who lives about 3 hours away. I wanted to beg her to stay and go next weekend, because I desperately need a distraction so I don't lose my mind. But I didn't, so now I'm all huddled up under the warm water and bubbles in my bathtub.... Wishing Noah was here to keep me company. And he never texted or called since we last talked on the phone...
I can do this. Just a night alone to relax and just do some homework or something. I'm sure there are a few assignments I can do to get ahead or maybe some extra reading I can do. I do have that load of laundry I need to do. And I never finished doing the dishes either. See you can take your mind off all that shit, I just need to stay occupied the rest of the day.
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