DatPurpleDeer

@Y-Studios and @WarriorLionstripe
          	
          	Sorry that you both got dragged into this and anyone else who might have I don't have knowledge of. That is genuinely my fault and I take full responsibility. You both can continue on with your lives and lift this off your chest, no further action is needed. Thank you for being my friends before and and I apologize for disappearing without much notice. It is not for me to say if you stay in contact with him or not, I'm sure your friendship was quite different from mine. 
          	I'm not ready to come back to my former relationships and I don't think I ever will after this experience. But I promise I will remember both of you and everyone else fondly.
          	
          	Thank you for checking in and again sorry for this whole mess ^^;. Have a good rest of your day.

Y-Studios

@DatPurpleDeer like Lion said, no need to apologize for that. I was (going to be) involved regardless of that thread/happenings, because of my relations to both parties. That couldn't have been avoided.
          	  
          	  That being said, I am really sorry everything turned out this way. It was never supposed to get this out of hand and I tried interfering at one point (hence me contacting someone as well and the blocking situation), but it wasn't enough. This person also got hurt and I'm so sorry for that.
          	  
          	  It's completely understandable if you do not want to continue past relations, and if you do, but just not with us, that's understandable too. Regardless, I wish you well. May you find the peace you're looking for and regain healthy friendships you desire.
          	  
          	  I'll be here in the meantime to make sure this all ends. Untill we meet again, otherwise, take care. <3
• Reply

WarriorLionstripe

*I was never really
• Reply

WarriorLionstripe

this message may be offensive 
And to be honest, I never really close to X. Him and I had a falling out back in 2022 after some shit he said, and I just happened to have been in a position where I was opening up again after a brutal mental health crisis during the same summer, so he caught me at a perfect point where I was willing to take chances and give a second chance.
• Reply

WarriorLionstripe

It still is horrifying thinking about that exchange with X and with now knowing about your health issues and the ICE raids that had occurred within your area. I know that you might never return to this account. Hell, there is a high possibility that you are already dead. Yet I still revisit this account every so often, pondering what things could have been like if the circumstances had been even the tiniest bit different. And although it hurts, I know that it does not amount to the hurt you have had to carry for all this time. I should have been there for you more, so hopefully this is my repayment for those missed days. 
          
          All that to say: I might revisit more often. Not to hope you will respond or anything. I know you likely won’t or can’t. But to leave a reminder that you are not forgotten. Whether you are alive, dead, active, or inactive, that you are remembered. Above all, I hope things are all the bit better for you.

WarriorLionstripe

@DatPurpleDeer Roger that! Sending the friend request now.
• Reply

DatPurpleDeer

@WarriorLionstripe Hi I found an old device from when I was a teen and happened to find this message in the notifications when I connected it to wifi- so, first of, thanks for checking in. My health actually got significantly better around January and returned to my usual activities. I do have pain from time to time- though with moderation I'm doing pretty okay. I'm performing and such, I'm exhausted but also very hyped XD Honestly I don't think I'd ever seen this message had I not gotten a bit nostalgic and searched for my old device. Despite what happened, I don't see my Wattpad experience or anyone in negative light. I miss talking with you and everyone sm XD I wonder how they are like now.
            Second of all, I don't want you to feel guilty about anything- that was on me entirely. My communication skills have always been lackluster, and even if you did check in I don't think I'd have said anything regardless. I apologize for disappearing on you though, I should have given you a heads up or something ^^; but regardless, I don't want you carrying any weight about me.
            If you'd like, you can contact me on discord. I don't use it much for reasons, only to transfer images across devices- I'm willing to add if you'd like to chat from time to time. My responses would probably be very delayed.
• Reply

WarriorLionstripe

Just a heads up that I’m gonna start my shift at work soon, so it’ll be about 3 hours until I can reply to anything. Just want to let you know in case you do reply but I don’t respond so that you don’t feel like I am ignoring you or anything. ^^

WarriorLionstripe

And anytime. Always and forever will have your back.
• Reply

WarriorLionstripe

@DatPurpleDeer
            
            That is fair. Farewell, Flicker, and be safe. ^^
• Reply

DatPurpleDeer

@WarriorLionstripe no worries ty for being here for me. I will be closing Wattpad now. Thank you for your time
• Reply

DatPurpleDeer

@Y-Studios and @WarriorLionstripe
          
          Sorry that you both got dragged into this and anyone else who might have I don't have knowledge of. That is genuinely my fault and I take full responsibility. You both can continue on with your lives and lift this off your chest, no further action is needed. Thank you for being my friends before and and I apologize for disappearing without much notice. It is not for me to say if you stay in contact with him or not, I'm sure your friendship was quite different from mine. 
          I'm not ready to come back to my former relationships and I don't think I ever will after this experience. But I promise I will remember both of you and everyone else fondly.
          
          Thank you for checking in and again sorry for this whole mess ^^;. Have a good rest of your day.

Y-Studios

@DatPurpleDeer like Lion said, no need to apologize for that. I was (going to be) involved regardless of that thread/happenings, because of my relations to both parties. That couldn't have been avoided.
            
            That being said, I am really sorry everything turned out this way. It was never supposed to get this out of hand and I tried interfering at one point (hence me contacting someone as well and the blocking situation), but it wasn't enough. This person also got hurt and I'm so sorry for that.
            
            It's completely understandable if you do not want to continue past relations, and if you do, but just not with us, that's understandable too. Regardless, I wish you well. May you find the peace you're looking for and regain healthy friendships you desire.
            
            I'll be here in the meantime to make sure this all ends. Untill we meet again, otherwise, take care. <3
• Reply

WarriorLionstripe

*I was never really
• Reply

WarriorLionstripe

this message may be offensive 
And to be honest, I never really close to X. Him and I had a falling out back in 2022 after some shit he said, and I just happened to have been in a position where I was opening up again after a brutal mental health crisis during the same summer, so he caught me at a perfect point where I was willing to take chances and give a second chance.
• Reply

WarriorLionstripe

Putting this here to not give a notification to either X or Y, but it’s entirely fair for why you went dark on everyone, especially X. I really am sorry about everything that has happened, and I do mean it when I say that I will always be by your side, that I will always have your back, regardless if we ever talk again or not. You were among my first friends on Wattpad, and you have always been a good friend at that. What X did, searching for you the way they were, was a clear violation of your privacy. 
          
          When you deleted all of your main accounts, I asked Tax and Silver, plus this very account, about it to make sure you were okay. So when Silver clarified that you were okay, I was content with that. 
          
          I am sorry about how all this played out, and I am sorry if I ever inadvertently caused you more stress. As always, if you ever need anything from me, I’ll do it without question.

WarriorLionstripe

And I forgot to mention it, but I have blocked X on everything, so you more than welcome to say whatever you want on my message board if you don’t want to deal with X replying to you.
• Reply

DatPurpleDeer

this message may be offensive 
When time and personal space was asked, the requests were ignored. Over and over again. What was an unrelated decision became something scary.  The multiple accounts, the messages akin to those of a stalker, involving unrelated people. Time was all that was requested. Instead I was hunted down like prey. I promise, it was not personal. But then it was.
          I can't forgive someone who harasses someone unrelated multiple times. They shouldn't have ever gone what the have gone through. I can't forgive someone who has weaponized my past relationships against me. I think its best I don't contact them either for the rest of my limited days now. I can't forgive someone who excuses stalking as "being good at looking for information" and joining communities in hopes you'll find what you're looking for. Well you won't. Because the day you harassed that person, it was evident everyone I made connections with would be in danger as well. I have no one close now. I can't let alone close because of you.
          My health isn't the greatest right now. I do not know how much time I have. I've been talked out of it countless times, and this is starting to add to it. That's why I've written this message. And I'll repeat myself again. I could never hate anyone. And I stand by that, you are not unique enough to change that, sorry. But I do recognize now that the treatment of other especially and myself were a very shitty thing to do. You are very much aware of it, and no amount of tears or self-loathing messages will open any doors. I hope you feel exposed, because you do need to realize that what you've done is wrong. I cannot have someone who did that in my life.  So I make one last request, as the person you once knew. I expect nothing but silence. Genuinely, fuck off. For everyone's wellbeing. The person you knew is long gone, so stop looking.

X-Studios

@DatPurpleDeer And thank you for a closure. I wanted things to be so different and happy for us... Bye-bye
• Reply

X-Studios

@DatPurpleDeer Thank you, genuinely for talking to me, may it be the last time or not. I uh... in no position to ask what exactly proves your fears right and what they are, but I would honestly appreciate if you could share that. So I would have a better understanding of my downsides. I understand, Flicker.
            Thank you for these eight years we have spent together. You were so kind, interesting and thrilling. You work so hard on your skills and towards your goals and people you care about. I always admired you and seen as a precious friend. And I was always afraid to mess it all up. Since the very day we started talking again on Discord. Still, I can't comply with your request not to say "Love you", because I do, Flicker, and I did. You know that very well. And I was true about loving you until May, by May I did develop an obssesion due to the stress and paranoia pilling up because of many things I was too scared to share with you.
            
            So I do say, that I love you, genuinely, you make me feel the feeling I didn't now exist. It is light, bright, fluffy, shining and warm. I hope you get to feel it in your life too, even though I regret it won't be with me... Be happy outhere, Flicker
            You were always a free bird, whom I tried to cage despite my original intentions.
            I will love you for a long time, maybe even until I meet my end. But regardless.
            Thank you for everything we have been through and what we have in common, it is valuable and helpful to me. I will become a famous musician, so maybe you'd at least treat me as another media person you don't know personally but like their craft, but I don't count on it. I wish we met irl instead of online, since things would be so much drastically different, at least long term...
            Okay, take care of your family, yourself and friends, trust them, at least more than me. You are a unique person, and I do love you
            Adios, mi amiguita
            Ha sido un placer conocerte
• Reply

X-Studios

this message may be offensive 
@DatPurpleDeer I regret getting her involved. I expected her to simply block me and live on happily. With me knowing I am unwelcome.
            I know I scared you... I felt like the worst person in the world saying that I would end my life. But let me tell you that. I honestly was about to do that when you disappeared. Because you were the world to me, the only one who listened and heard me. The only one to care about what I said. So when you left, my only motivation to go on in life was gone. But I didn't kill myself because I held on the thought that I would forever lose you if I were to die. Thus I have worked on myself, and towards our common goals during the past half year.
            
            I don't dismiss getting irl. Getting irl is dangerous to me due to the political situation, and you know that better than anyone else. I didn't want you to health my sanity, just to be my friend.
            
            I am terribly sorry to hear about your mental health... I would've been more thoughtful of you if I were to know about all that...
            
            
            Take care of your health, Flicker. I know life is hard to you, but you are strong. 
            And you are right there.... I just got very anxious after half a year of silence, you know? Someone who genuinely reached you out a lot disappeared. I blamed myself since the very first day you delete your old accounts. I KNEW it was because of me. And I was trying my best to understand why did I became this way and how to avoid it, in hope that you could give me a second chance and that I would make the most of it,  not ever daring to ask for another one if I were to fuck up the second one.
            I am really bad at talking to people, and I don't pick on on the most obvious things.. And I try to get better, I make friends often. It is just, I am really broken deep in my mind and I should get therapy. You were always right about that, and I was too much of a chicken to face my parents about that, because they would put me into a madhoud if I were to tell them I need to visit a therapist...
• Reply