J1

Glad you 3 are still here, I can tell you today was extremely interesting, started off nerve recking to be honest, but it turn out quite a cool day and let’s just say my believes were once again confirmed without an doubt. Just not getting around to rewriting that lost first chapter, might just be a sign it’s not the time who knows, went through this phone, absolutely nothing, I didn’t just misplace it forsure. 

So I made a statement on someone’s post and knew some or many would take offence, still think about what I posted, I exhaustively studied and verified what I believe and rejected much of  of what I was taught initially as fact and brought up to believe. 
          
           Have you or are you just following tradition or lead by the nose? I’m challenging you to do that, even when your society shuns even questioning challenging their teachings. That in itself should cause deep concern, if there is nothing to hide and it’s fact, looking into it will only prove it right?
          
          I’m going to make another statement and think this thought before rejecting it outright as well please. If what you believe does not lead to persecution you are probably living and believing a lie as you are no threat to the powers that are leading humanity into destruction and away from freedom, free will and true joy. BTW there is a HUGE difference between pleasure and joy.

And I’m done with hiding and living in fear from your group, I will move freely in Cape Town and reclaim my life, my city and I’m not going to be pushed out or run come what may!

Hmm so my backup of my first chapter was on this device and gone now that I want to edit and post. You did me a favour assholes, I was in a serious dark place when I vommited up those emotions and put them to pen, not my true nature. That was hurt, pain, anger and plotting revenge when I’m all about forgiveness, new beginnings and love. So I forgive you as you think what you’re doing is right and just, even holy, but you’re wrong YHWH don’t make mistakes as it’s impossible and I know He has my back.

Life brings loads of twist and turns, joy can be found despite the valleys, pleasure is fleeting yet so good, but to chace it leads away from joy. Finding balance with just the right measure of pleasure that does not compromise or distract from your true source of joy is a daily recommitment, almost an inigna but it forces to align with the the universe daily as a choice first thing daily. 
          
          Even though I’ve published many technical documents in the past, I’ve always wanted to do something fictional and a week or two I posted my first ever attempt, 1chapter at this point, I enjoyed working on it so it’s definitely a new hobby I’m gonna focus on. Must say it is VERY raw and  definitely for a mature and non squeamish audience, but even though sad, it’s definitely not going to be all doom, gloom and tragic. Lets just say I have no illusions about life and what humans race is capable of, on the others hand I also know the beauty we can create if we choose too. 
          To me life itself is a miracle, we shape and choose what it will look like, God gave us that freedom of choice too either hate and produce death and destroy or create, give and cherish beauty! 
          
           I associate better with woman, I'm always edgy around men, like I need to be ready, they don’t think and want to fix everything violently, so even though  I’m no pushover and have done my share of asskicking, It never gave me any pleasure, only regret, that was a long long time back aswell. We mature, well most do, I’ve come to detest violence unless to defend oneself or others who’s not able.

Thank you for following, I’m honoured!