maybe iris. i can't remember

okay i'm really pathetic for getting mad over that um
          
          still taking a break tho ik something'll happen

Hey!!! Love you!!! Goodnight!!!! /Plat
          :3

i i might've fucked up or maybe i'm just being paranoid again fuck okay i need to sleep or else i'll do this again

when you said that it hurt.

the worst part about it is that nobody irl considers me a real 'friend'.
          
          i'm just someone you took in 'cause you thought i was pretty. yeah don't lie i had NO personality before talking to you, NO friends, NOTHING. yeah yeah yeah what did you say the first few times you talked to me? disgusting.
          
          now i'm just 'weird depressed kid!!' like okay first off you're the kid. yes i'm objectively a young person but in comparison i'm the older one so syyyybau
          
          they say worse things but ion wanna get suspended lmao
          anyways can we just accept the fact we shouldn't be rude ass bitches?
          
          everyone thinks i'm an idiot until they need help, because then suddenly i'm the smartest person alive and knows everything about everything yeah?
          
          i've BEEN being nice to you so don't give me that bullshit
          don't lie.
          
          
          
          
          it hurts to admit but i'd really be nothing without these people.

sometimes i look at myself and think, 'how was anyone ever jealous of me? how do they turn to me for help?'
          
          but then again
          all my irl friends are just like that.
          
          people in my old school were too but if i were them... God i don't even wanna talk about it.
          there's nothing that impressive about me anyways
          
          life so bad you'd settle for average yeah?
          and you clown me when i do one thing in a way you don't deem 'perfect'?
          
          grow the fuck up. this is why you struggle to keep friends tbh. i can't always help you and be there for you. fucking GROW UP and learn to do shit yourself.
          
          'b-but i can't be arsed!' then don't do it?? lmao??? if you can be arsed to pester me for  UNECESSARY 'help' you can watch a youtube tutorial on how to do it babes.
          
          and like, yes, sure, i always encourage people to ask me if they need something! and yes, i'd love to help! but it gets to a POINT where it's DRAINING and downright IDIOTIC.
          
          'h-h-how do you do this...' you click a button my love.
          
          shit i don't even know what to say about these people..
          sub-fucking-humans personality-wise
          
          yeah don't piss me off i grew a backbone yk.