[ The glass shard skittered away, a tiny mirror reflecting the neon hellscape below, but Lucian didn’t follow it with his eyes. Instead, he let his head loll back against his shoulders, staring up at the smog-choked sky with a dry, rattling chuckle that didn't reach his eyes. He looked like a man coming apart at the seams, yet still dangerous enough to kill with the frayed ends. ] " Losing my touch ? " [ He repeated the words like they were a foreign language, tasting the bitterness. He finally turned his head to look at her, his vision swimming just enough to make her silhouette seem like a ghost haunting his periphery. He leaned heavily into the railing, the metal groaning under his weight as he closed the small gap between them, bringing the scent of cheap whiskey and cold rain with him. ] " Maybe I just wanted to see if you were still fast enough to dodge. It’d be a shame if the great Russian assassin got taken out by a literal bottle of spirits. " [ His smirk was lopsided, lacking its usual predatory precision. He grew quiet then, his gaze dropping to the way she braced herself against the railing. For a second, the mask slipped—the sharp, cutting edge of his eyes softening into something weary and ancient. ] " Why ? " [ He exhaled the word, a cloud of frost and regret. ] " Because the silence in my head gets too loud when I’m sober, Kalina. And tonight... tonight the ghosts are screaming. " [ He reached out, his hand hovering near her shoulder for a fraction of a second—uncertain, unpracticed—before he gripped the railing beside her hand instead, his knuckles white. ] " Why are you still standing here ? You've seen me hold the world on my shoulders. Don't tell me you've stuck around just to watch them break. "