The 3rd Day of October, 1890
I am undone.
There is a weight upon my chest that I cannot name without shame, a secret that clings to me as though it were woven from my very blood.
I met her today beneath the shadow of the garden wall, where the roses bloom too boldly to be innocent. The world beyond those hedges might have been as placid and proper as ever, but there—there was nothing of propriety, only the quiet urgency of stolen moments.
We spoke in whispers, and every syllable seemed to tremble with meaning.
Her hand brushed mine ever so briefly, and I felt the pulse of the earth itself thrumming beneath my feet.
I am aware, even in that instant, of how perilous it is—to surrender to something forbidden, to let one's heart wander where society would not allow. And yet, I cannot resist.
How cruel it is, that pleasure and peril should entwine so tightly, leaving only ache in their wake.
I return to my chambers and feel the world pressing back against me. The curtains, the tea set, the faint smell of lavender—all seem to judge me, to remind me that I am bound by decorum even while my thoughts rebel.
I lie awake, haunted by the memory of her glance, the ghost of her touch, wondering if desire can ever be reconciled with duty.
I know this cannot last. There will be consequences. There will always be consequences.
Yet even knowing this, I find myself rehearsing our next encounter in secret, imagining the hidden smiles, the muted laughter, the gentle intensity of fingers entwined without witnesses.
It is a dangerous indulgence, a candle flame flickering too close to my restraint, yet I am drawn to it as surely as the night draws the stars.
I must be cautious. I must be patient.
And yet—my mind betrays me, insisting upon the impossible: that happiness may exist here, even briefly, within the confines of this forbidden affection.
A/N: there were gays during the Victorian era, period
ALSO
I WENT TO A SHAKESPEARE MUSICAL TODAY
ROMEO AND JULIET
Basic I know
BUT I DONT CARE
IT WAS SO COOL ISTG
AND THERE WAS GAY REPRESENTATION
WE LOVE
AND IM PRETTY SURE I FELL IN LOVE WITH ONE OF THE ACTORS
Kidding obv
Or am I
This was inspired by illct affairs - Taylor Swift
Is that what an affair is like, i have no idea, yet here we are lol
Anyways i hope you liked it
Ly<3
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Victorian diary entries
Historical FictionJust a bunch of fictional diary entries I came up with because i was bored lol ! Very Victorian-style prose and vocabulary A/N: This piece is stylistically inspired by older literary English rather than written as a strict historical or linguistic...
