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When we met again, honestly, I don't know what to feel.

I want to do a lot of things to test if I still have feelings for you. I want to hold your hand. I want to kiss you again. You put your hand on my shoulder. You embraced me for a moment. At that moment, I'm not gonna lie--it felt wonderful. I wanted to hug you longer, fuck everyone who'll stare.

Half part of my brain wanted to protest. That this is all I wanted for a long time. Talking with you. Being close with you again. Let my skin touch yours. Even the slightest touch makes my skin tingle.

I want to kiss away your sorrow, your pain, your struggle. I want to give you happiness you also deserve. Because I know I'm good at making people happy. Making you happy. I deserve to be happy, but you also deserve to be one too.

We both knew that we couldn't be together again.

That's what we both agreed. You're not ready to commit yet unless you fix yourself. You've owned up to your mistakes. You know yourself that you need to improve, and being in a relationship just isn't the right time yet.

And I... I'm still fixing myself. As I've said, I lost more what I could gain. During the process, I lost myself. And I know talking with you personally would help me move on with my past. Not just in our relationship. On all the wrong things that happened in my life.

We knew we needed time to fix ourselves. We're doing it right this time. We're gonna do something right.

When you told me that you miss me, my mind went blank. Because for the past month, I've been wanting to hear those words again. Before, I'd rather suffer just to listen on those feelings. Now, my heart longs for no one. Or maybe this body is still confused on what's happening, and I couldn't interpret myself correctly.

I may be right. I may be wrong.

But I've held my breath the whole time we're together. Does that mean something?

I just don't know the answers to my questions right now. And not knowing the answer seems to be fine for me, because I got a lot of time to think about it.

I want to be myself again. And talking with you is the best decision to start all over again.

Let's make things right this time.