commit.

I stare in front of the mirror and tell myself, "Your eyes tell me... that we should end it all."

I've been good. Physically and emotionally. Mentally? Not that much, since I've been studying every day for my academics. It's not that bad. I actually like being this busy, and what I'm learning interests me so much.

After months of feeling stagnant, I'm finally learning how to stand up again and be myself as a whole new one. Not the same old, same old, me. I've picked up the pieces of my broken self that I wanted to bring with me along in this journey.

You're not a piece that will join me on this road that I'm taking. Although a part of me will always be shattered--unmendable, of course. It's the bubog that I'll use as my weapon when I write. This will cause me to bleed on paper. I'd always look back at that pain you caused me and make them real again on my words. I'd look back and tell myself that I survived that, and as cliché as it may sound, it made me stronger.

Honestly, I don't want us to be together again. Janice from FRIENDS told this line: "I believe that the sun has set on our day in the sun."

Maybe in the future, we'll be friends. Or lovers. But at this point in time, I'm pretty okay with you not around.

When we broke up, I found myself learning different kinds of things. I loved research, and I still don't get how and why I got immersed in reading scholarly articles. A huge part of me loved to learn so much about the world, and the time I spent with you had concealed that. I was scared of being out of my zone. And now... I'm not afraid.

I also met someone. That person made me realize that I'm capable of loving much more than I could and I could receive the same as well. That person... made me realize that I could be loved--something that you failed to do. The support, the laughter, the stories, and the time we spent together were more special and nothing compared to the months we've been together. I can't wait to face more adventures together, actually. I'm more excited about the future that awaits us.

I've also seen my improvement, something that I don't usually do. I've seen my progress. I've looked back on how I do things and saw that I've improved drastically. I hope that this will continue in the future.

This year has been so rough for me. I decided that I'm leaving behind the pain and suffering that people had made me feel. Or maybe, I already started it--I just wanted to put these into words so that when I look back at it in the future, I'd remember. Memories may fail me but words will never be.

I'm finally leaving you behind. I already did a long time ago... but I wanted to be so sure.

End it all.

I loved you, but now's the time to be free.

Good bye.