Finey_boo1
From what I knew to what I found.
I called it love because I didn't know peace could whisper louder than pain. I mean I listened to your complains of how you were made, I dried your tears as you cried, I even lost some of my pride to please you in unattainable ways. You made me questioned myself, even the one up above, if I was ever meant for love? Jealousy took me over when I see the online lovers, flowers, gifts and even planned picnics. Am I able to achieve this? The constant disrespects cause this numb feeling in my chest, and here I am still trying to fix it when you play victim in every misery. I am sorry, I apologize, I'm tired of hearing it! All you did was break me inside and out, maybe you thought you loved me, but that was just your fear of losing me. I watered stones hoping they'd turn into flowers, but that was the delusional me. You taught me to survive, not to bloom.
But then this unfamiliar feeling hit me, it's soft, safe and feels so strange. It came like sunshine after the rain. I didn't have to fight this time, because it found me. The love I use to know had me questioning my worth, this love reminds me I never have to earn it. I now know self worth! Thanks to my past I stopped accepting, I didn't fall this time, I rose into arms where calmness flows.