missmaddie12
Dear Jane,
Is it bad to think about it? Is it bad to think about death in a positive way? Is it bad to debate whether or not I should just end it here? Because if it is, I am a bad person. I go over all of the pros and cons sometimes and who I might hurt or what I might cause. The only people I could see getting hurt the most would be my grandparents because they already lost a son and that would just put them over the edge. I know my parents would hurt a lot, too. But something tells me that they would be the only people who would take it really hard. My family- that's it. I can't see anyone else getting that sad over me. I don't think they would even care that much to be honest. If I was famous they would all pretend to have been my best friends, so I guess the way I have it would be better. I hate pretenders. I wonder who would truly care, though.
Love always,
Mads